Starting to have some good days!!!

It's about time. I'm starting to have some good days. I'm still feeling tired, but I'm starting to sleep better and when I've gone out in public the anxiety has not been as bad. I didn't have to listen to music to distract me, but still not looking up. Still think people are starring at me. I'm trying to remember what my psychologist said. He wants me to try to talk to myself and say it doesn't matter what other people think of me. I kinda need a go to heck attitude about how other people think about me. That is something that I can't control. It's just hard because I've been like that for pretty much all my life.

Kenzie and I went and visited family yesterday. That was a great day. The girls had fun and Kenzie got to play the Wii with Meemaw and Uncle Adam. She had a blast. I spent time talking with Kari about possibly starting an Internet craft business. We are looking into it. We both have our things that we are suppose to research and then we will see from there.

I start my master program on Feb. 9th. I have an online workshop this week to get familiar with everything that I need to do. I am excited about this. Still a little nervous , but I know I can do it.

I am still more anxious about being around people I know. I am doing better, but I'm not sure if I can handle going back to school yet. I am going to try to go to church this weekend. I told Donnie, my husband, that we needed to sit at the back so I don't feel like everyone is watching me. We sit at the front and the people on the other side seem to be staring at me. I'm also going to try to call and get my hair cut. This has been hard for me to do because I don't know what people have been saying and how I will do talking at the shop. I know there are all kinds of rumors going around because the school can't official say why I'm out. That is illegal for them to do.

I'm going to try to get out for a ride today. It is a little cold so I am trying to wait until mid day to do so. That way it is a little warmer. If not, I'll get on my stationary bike.

Well, gotta go. Hope everyone is having a great and awesome day. :)