It's been a while.

Well, I have not written in a while. I think the last time I wrote wore me out. A lot has happened in the week since I last wrote. I have been very tired lately. Drinking more caffeine than I probably should be, but it is the only way that I make it through the day without sleeping all day. I don't want to sleep all day, but I sure feel like it.

I started my master's classes. I had a three day workshop first. It helped to familiarize me with the website and the online classroom experience. I have now started my first class which is an introduction to graduate studies. I am kinda overwhelmed. I have been thinking that I must have been crazy for doing this at this time in my life. I wonder if I can do it. I think at times, I am too old for this. Then at times I know I can do this. I can get my Masters and change things in my life. I am trying to organize to help me feel better about everything. I think it is overwhelming at times because it is all online and I have never taken a course like this. I like computers, so I think it will work out okay.

I talked to the psychologist about how angry I have been. He said it was good because those feelings are coming out. I have hidden everything in the back of my head and my body is saying it is now time to let it out and deal with it. He also said that writing these post is very helpful. It is another way of getting it out of my head. He said that the most important thing to remeber is that I am the victim. There is nothing I could have done. He also said that my uncle is probably in the 1% of people who would do that to a little girl and then murder members of his own family. I've been trying to figure out what set it off. The only thing that I can think of is that I have been scanning pictures and maybe because I saw a picture of him, that set it off.

All I know is I am getting better. I'm not where I need to be yet, but I will get there.

Have a great night. :)