So-So Mood

I have been in a So-So mood the last several days. I think my meds need to be upped. I was feeling better overall about 2 weeks ago. I have been busy with my online courses. That is why I haven't written lately. Plus i really haven't been in the mood. My psychologist told me to get back to the writing. So I will do a better job and try to write something daily. My last appointment with the psychologist went pretty good. He could tell I was not as good as I was the visit before. There were a couple of things that got to me. As I get closer to having to go back to school, I have started to have many dreams at night about it. I am real worried about the fact that I might not have a job when I return. Meaning that they will find something to let me go. I'm trying not to let it affect me but subconscoiusly it is. The second thing was my husband. He has not been as supportive lately. Not being loving and caring. He didn't even get me a card for Valentine's Day. I didn't want roses, just at least a card to say I love you. The psychologist told me I need to get an attitude about not letting what other people might think bother me. I need to get tough skin and say screw them. It's hard because I've been this way all my life. I'm trying but it is hard. I hope I start feeling like I did a couple of weeks ago. I take 2 steps forward and 1 backwards. I'll get better. I know it.

Have a great day. :)