Feeling Tired!

I am feeling real tired. I bet it has something to do with the switch in meds. I'm also having a heard time getting motivated. I did motivate myself enough to go for a 4.2 mile ride yesterday. I will try to do the recumbent today (if I get motivated). I enjoyed the ride yesterday, but am definitely out of shape.

I am feeling like I did before. When I even think about work I start get the thought that I can't do it any more. I had a comment from another person who used to be a teacher. I had commented how I missed the kids. She said you will always miss the kids but you have to consider your health and because of your health how good of a teacher are you really being. She said it was nice to go through a day and feel good. She said you have to consider how the teaching affects you and then also affects your behavior with your family. This made sense to me. I'm just not sure if I can handle it anymore.

If I am unable to go back to teaching, I will have to go back to school and do something in computers because that is something I can do from home. I don't know what is going to happen. I've just got to wait until my meds are working and I can make a good decision and see what the doctor's say.

The hard part of all of this is how I talk to myself. I am my worst critic. I wonder sometimes if I am really sick. I have talked to the doctor's about this and they said that I have to let myself heal. If all you can do is sleep, then sleep. I don't need to kick myself when I'm already down.

I hope everyone has a great day. :)