Amazing!

It's amazing what people assume when you are not around. Some kids told my daughter Mackenzie that I got fired. I told her to tell them that I am home dealing with a sickness. I hate that she has to hear stuff like that.



It made me wonder what was being said at school and around town. Most of the time if kids are saying it, they are hearing it somewhere and most likely it is parents. I'm trying not to let it bug me, but it seems to keep popping back in my head.



I was able to accomplish a little today on my goal of getting organized and getting items ready for the garage sale. It felt good, but I didn't feel well the rest of the afternoon. I had a real bad headache. I've been trying to do as much as possible when I'm feeling good. I'm feeling like I did before the meds. I know the meds are not where they need to be yet. I am short tempered and have no patience. My husband is really getting on my nerves right now. Everything is my fault. I hate it when he does that stuff.



I rode on the stationary bike yesterday. I am trying to work on it more right now until I get a little better in shape. Then I will be able to get out more and handle it better. It looks as if I will either get a 40 mile or a 67 mile ride in May. They don't have a 50 mile ride. I will probably go one day and drive the route. Then make the decision on which one I will do. It will be great to accomplish this goal.



I meet with the psychiatrist tomorrow. I will get to see how my meds will change. I have the psychologist on Wednesday. I remember that this is what I have to do to get better.



I have been thinking more about my master program. I am a little nervous thinking that I will not be able to do it. It has been so long since I did that much studying that it scares me. I am going to give it all I have. I feel that this is where God is leading me. I've got to stop questioning.



Hope everyone out there has a great night. :)