Just Eat and Eat!!!

That is all I've done today. I think I have tried just about everything in the house. I don't know why I just can't seem to stop eating. I'm not eating because I am hungry. I don't know what I am looking for but I wish it would stop being food.

Getting nervous about my next course. Now I will get into more of the study I would need to become a good administrator. It's going to be hard to do these courses. I hope I don't get discouraged.

My husband and I are not seeing eye to eye. He is never happy when I take my daughter and we do things without him. I think he believes when he is at work I should be home waiting for him. He seems to be worried about someone to feed the animals and clean and cook his food. He didn't talk to me last night because when I got back from visiting my family, I didn't have him any food. He cooked him something, but he didn't start talking to me until this afternoon. I really can't handle this. I can barely handle dealing with my problems and then trying to deal with his anger, I just can't do it. Why can he be supportive of me like I was supportive of him when he was home sick and disabled? I don't understand. I really don't know if I can be with him forever when he is like this. He barely touches me and that pushed me away more. It's like we are just roommates.

I am getting so tired of feeling the way I do. I might have a okay day but then I have a bad one. Today I am sick and tired of feeling this way. Sometimes I think it would be better if I wasn't around. But I would not do that to my daughter. She means the world to me and I just want to be back to normal. Why is there always a down when there is an up? I just want to cry. I go to the psychiatrist tomorrow, maybe they will up the meds. We'll see.