I Can't Do It Right Now!!!

I am so stressed out about my master's course. I don't think I can do it right now. I don't want to quit, I just want to postpone it until I get stronger. I have been trying to do some of the assignments and nothing I am reading is sticking. I don't know how to do the post. I am just overwhelmed. I think I realized that I am at a bad spot right now and this is just adding to the pressure. The psychiatrist said the other day that I am a negative magnet right now and I know she is right. That is all that is coming into my head right now. I am writing like the doctor said and it seems like I am writing all day. If I keep this up, my little book will fill up quick. Is it wrong of me to stop this stress right now? I can here my husband now. He will say I told you so. But I can't handle the stress from college. I would not be happy with a bad grade and that would not look good. So I think I will call my academic counselor tomorrow and talk to her about this.

I tried to go for a ride today. I only made it a mile. It was cold and I could not make myself go. I need to be happy that I got that far, but I'm upset because I know I can do more. I feel a sleeping day coming one. I am ready to hide for a while. I am so tired. Tired of eating and gaining weight all the time, tired of this depression and anxiety, tired of being so negative. I just can't seem to get totally out of it. I think I am going to listen to my body and rest for a bit.