Spring Break

Today is the second day of spring break. My daughter is having fun. Her cousin has been staying with us and they have been playing hard.

I am having a tough day today. I am just not feeling well. Having a hard time getting anything done. I have been trying to study but it seems impossible at times. I have been doing pretty good, but I still seem to have some bad days. I wonder if the meds need to be increased. Maybe that would help even more. I will see when I go to the psychiatrist next week. I go to the psychologist this week. I need to find out what they both think about going back to work. I need to go back to work on April 5th or I could be let go. We will see what they say. I am anxious about going back. Not sure how I am going to handle everything. My daughter wanted to go to the zoo the other day. So we took her. I did okay until it started getting crowded and then I needed to leave. Too many people around. I start to get anxious. I hate it because I use to be able to enjoy things like that. Now I would rather stay home. It has gotten to where I need to go the shopping early because if I don't I get to anxious. I am still better than before but still not like I use to be. I can't wait to be normal again.

Right now I just want to hide. It is just one of those days. I hope it will get better. Maybe it will be better when I go back to work. I just don't know how I am going to handle the crowds. Depression and anxiety are tough diseases to have. it just never seems to get totally better.

Have a great night. :)