OK. I Can Try!!!

Well, I am going to try to continue. If I stop my master's course not by dropping, I might jeopordize my student loan and I don't want to do that. I guess the biggest thing I was scared of is the fact that this is all new to me. I have made a major change and it is totally different from what I have done since I graduated college in 1992. I know in my heart that I can do this. I just need to keep talking positive to myself.

I had a pretty go 1st part of the day. I felt better this morning and accomplished some things. This afternoon, I am starting to feel like yesterday. It is weird how I can have a pretty good morning and almost be my normal self and now I start feeling like I can't do anything. It was nice this morning. I accomplished some things, got some school work done, and felt good. It was great. Maybe the meds are wearing off in the afternoon. Maybe they need to increase to meds. I did so well this morning that I didn't even write in my book until this afternoon.

I think I might be ready to go back to work. I am a little nervous about it, but I know I can do it. I just have to remember to take one day at a time. I really miss the kids. I also need to get field day set. I don't want to let the kids down any more than I already have by not being there for the last several months. Maybe it will do me some good to get out of the house. I t will be tough.

I am sure lucky. I have the best sisters. They have been listening to me and helping me through all of this. I don't think I could have made it without them. I always wanted a sister and now I have 2 great sisters.

My daughter will be excited for me to start back at school. I just better get ready to answer questions from the kids. I will also have to remember, what happens with the job will happen and there is nothing I can do about it. I just have to try and see if I can just teach PE. I do not think I can handle the pressure of coaching and the time restraints of coaching. I want to start riding with my daughter and walking with her. That way we can both get our exercise. Also my sister and I are going to start lifting weights.

I hope everybody has a great day. :)