It has been a while since I last wrote. Things are much better. I have been working since last April. I am finally starting to feel like the same person I used to be at work. It has taken me awhile to feel like that. I made it through Cross Country and Basketball and am working on finishing out track. My classes are starting to get back to normal. I have started to teach like I used too.
I did have some thoughts of getting out of teaching, but my doctor thought I should give it some time. She thought it was the depression talking especially since I used to love teaching. I had thought about going to school to become a nurse. It is still in the back of my head. I just need to give teaching a few more years before I can decide to change.
One of the bad things about depression was the weight gain that occured. I ballooned to 225 lbs. I was feeling tired all the time and it seemed like anything I did to lose the weight just didn't work. After my doctor put me on an additional med to help me sleep at night, I have been able to tackle the weight gain. I am now down to 206 lbs. I have been counting calories. This has been good because I can still eat the foods I want but I just have to keep it under 1500 calories. My goal is to be at 190 lbs. by summer. That way I will look desent in a swimsuit for vacation. I will be getting back on the bicycle after spring break. My friend and I want to be able to ride in Waco in September. I think we are going to try 50 miles.
I still have bad days now and then. That is a heck of a lot better than having every moment being bad. I have come a long way and I plan on continuing to get better.
I will try and do a better job about writing.
